Sinner (Priest, 2)

Okay yes this book was very smutty (not as smutty as priest), but still smutty. But I felt as though their relationship really didn’t progress. He just thought she was this younger girl who he wanted to deflower, and I feel like he falls more in love with the idea of having her than her.

Enjoyed it!

She’s the kind of beautiful that inspires songs and paintings and wars

If I had to pick a Bell brother, it would be Sean because I'm a sucker for men who fall in love first.

This book can be read as a standalone and it does have quite a bit of religion mentioned in it. The book tropes in this book are: interracial couple, best friend's sister, virgin fmc, age gap, forbidden/taboo, insta-lust

The book started off with Sean's confidence:

I’m a sinner with a dimpled smile and perfect hair, and I know how to make sin feel like heaven at a party

where he met a stunning girl called Mary. Though the insta-lust was a little too much, it seemed to be more than lust at that moment:

"What if this is the only kiss I get to have from you for the rest of my life? I want to take my time. Savor it.”

But it doesn't go beyond anything he wants it to be and he left her knowing that he would never meet her again.

Except, we the readers know if that is how the book goes the existing chapters won't exist. So, he did indeed know the girl and she happens to be his best friend's sister, Zenny whom he carried as a baby. On top of it, she was going to begin her training to be a nun. But Zenny was not what I expected to be: she wanted a trial run of what she was missing before she can never do it again AKA one month of sex, sex and more sex. And the person she wants this with is Sean Bell. Sean had a little bit of sanity and him and he told himself it is wrong to think of Zenny in that way:

You’re Elijah’s baby sister and now all of a sudden you’re a nun and the things I wanted to do to you, Zenny, Jesus fuck, you have no idea

but the sanity vanishes the more Zenny coaxes him into coaching sex to her.

Indeed, he became a mess when things started getting steamy:

The moment her lips touch mine, I’m lost. To myself, to her, to any memory of what is right or true or necessary

It’s suddenly all I can think about, all I can want or crave, just one glimpse, just a peek

(who does this line remind you of?)

He couldn't hold it into his pants and the more they screwed, the more it became just a lay for each other because Sean got obsessed with Zenny:

Like she’s murmured it into her pillow, like she’s doodled it in notebooks, like she’s imagined what it would be like to breathe my own name back into my lips

and her revelation:

I saw you, and you were the first boy I ever wanted, Sean. When I was a little girl, I thought we’d get married, when I was old enough to have a real crush, I had a crush on you. When I was in high school, it was you that my body first wanted

that induced his feelings of love:

So why is You were the answer to my prayers the last thing to run through my mind before I come?

When he was confused, he turned to ex priest for help and Tyler's advice was:

To be fully human is to be fully sexual, and while that doesn’t mean having sex or even sexual desire, it does mean being fully in your body. It means recognizing that there’s nothing any less holy about your body than there is about your soul, that as long as your body is treated with consent and respect and affection—and that you treat the bodies of others in the same way—there’s nothing inherently sinful about your flesh. About its desires or lack of desires. About what it does or does not do

which I felt showed his character development after Priest (though it's sad we didn't get to see this part of him in the book itself). After getting the answer he thought he had, he started embracing his feelings towards her:

The feeling of being held and embraced by her is almost more potent than anything else. I want her to hold me forever; I already hate the thought of not having her arms around me

The idea of her leaving me every time we fuck leaves me in nothing but tatters

I don’t want to be away from you a minute more than I fucking have to

and isn't that so fucking endearing? Emotional and soft men are always superior