In My Dreams I Hold a Knife: A Novel

By Ashley Winstead

"[A] mordant debut novel....examines what it means to covet the lives of others, no matter the cost."--The New York Times

"Tense, twisty, and packed with shocks."--Riley Sager, New York Times bestselling author of Survive The Night

Six friends.

One college reunion.

One unsolved murder.

Ten years after graduation, Jessica Miller has planned her triumphant return to her southern, elite Duquette University, down to the envious whispers that are sure to follow in her wake. Everyone is going to see the girl she wants them to see--confident, beautiful, indifferent. Not the girl she was when she left campus, back when Heather Shelby's murder fractured everything, including the tight bond linking the six friends she'd been closest to since freshman year.

But not everyone is ready to move on. Not everyone left Duquette ten years ago, and not everyone can let Heather's murder go unsolved. Someone is determined to trap the real killer, to make the guilty pay. When the six friends are reunited, they will be forced to confront what happened that night--and the years' worth of secrets each of them would do anything to keep hidden.

Told in racing dual timelines, with a dark campus setting and a darker look at friendship, love, obsession, and ambition, In My Dreams I Hold A Knife is an addictive, propulsive read you won't be able to put down.

"Beautiful writing, juicy secrets, complex female characters, and drumbeat suspense--what more could you want from a debut thriller?"--Andrea Bartz, author of Reese's Book Club pick We Were Never Here

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336 pages

Average rating: 7.37

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MadelineHunt
6/10 stars
I can’t say I expected the ending so that was enjoyable. Overall the book felt a bit like it was just someone reliving their college experience.
Maria Mcbride
10/10 stars
Excuse me while my I pick my jaw off the floor. There first half was a bit slow for me, but the second half was inhaled. A fun, dark academia with multiple twists in a who-dun-it psychological thriller.
Kyle Weeks
10/10 stars
This was so good!!! I really enjoyed the dual timelines and characters. I had a fun time trying to figure out what happened in the past & uncovering the secrets.
Milow
7/10 stars
Loved the story! I found the flashbacks boring most of the times and skipped a couple pages… (not all the flashbacks!) it was hard to get into the story at first but it was worth it, loved the ending. Couldn’t put it away
Paolas_shelf
8/10 stars
⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️.5-❗️TW: Sexual assault, substance abuse, drugging, suicide❗️
If you haven’t read this one yet, stop what you’re doing and RUN, don’t walk to buy it!

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